I want to go to East Rock, at night and just let everything out, scream at the top of my lungs and just sit and think in peace. I need a car.

I am past the point of being gone. I can not stand anything going on. Where all these shady acts and shit come from. I need get the fuck outta here.

I don't know how I got myself here, where did it all start. Why is it when I take two steps forward I'm forced to take one step back. I've been on the same path for so long and it's like everytime I try to take a U-turn and go on the right road I bust another left and there I am again lost. Lost ... I don't know where I'm heading I don't wanna be a failure for the rest of my life. I don't wanna be the one letting people down all the time. I don't wanna be the example people point at and say if you don't do this if you don't do that you'll turn into "her". I wanna be the person that goes through all this and still find her way, the one they are shocked because I turned out to make my life better. Even though I'm struggling to get up I'll get to the top and stay there.

I'm trying out for america's next top model when I'm 18. I say this now, and I will do it. If I fail I fail least I get an answer.

I wonder what the hell I ate to make me fart as much as I am right now like , DiZZZAAAAAAMN