I don't know how I got myself here, where did it all start. Why is it when I take two steps forward I'm forced to take one step back. I've been on the same path for so long and it's like everytime I try to take a U-turn and go on the right road I bust another left and there I am again lost. Lost ... I don't know where I'm heading I don't wanna be a failure for the rest of my life. I don't wanna be the one letting people down all the time. I don't wanna be the example people point at and say if you don't do this if you don't do that you'll turn into "her". I wanna be the person that goes through all this and still find her way, the one they are shocked because I turned out to make my life better. Even though I'm struggling to get up I'll get to the top and stay there.